Saturday, November 30, 2013

Thursday, November 14, 2013

Wednesday, October 23, 2013

Sunday, October 06, 2013

Sanity is uncomfortable

Lying on the cusp of sanity and of reality, leaning toward an endless abyss I retreat to places, things, and people that are familiar to me. For safety. Like my blog, like my dog. Like a child lost, I am thinking wildly and not sure what to do with myself. I typically write here whenever I am furthest from the normal me. I am the furthest I have ever been now. Been playing ping pong with two countries - Israel and the US. Lost as to where to rest my head, but discovering much about myself that has been unfound through the years due to inertia and busy thought. Delusional in a sense but cautious so as not to lose this "person" that everybody is familiar with. Likely to disappear quietly so as not to hassle anybody - including myself, from life. Leaving clues like a trail from a cookie. Feeling fragile as water in a falling glass cup. Moving on, I question every synapse. What am I doing? Where am I going? Who am I hurting? Where do I place myself?


“To die, it's easy. But you have to struggle for life.”
―Art Spiegelman




Saturday, September 14, 2013

Sunday, September 08, 2013

Sunday, September 01, 2013

San Francisco

I should mention, I have never seen freakier looking people than there are here in San Fran. The homeless are not only homeless but are very strange looking. I was told I should expect this being that it's the west coast but boy am I surprised. Also, never seen more people talking to themselves. Everytime I do, I look for an earpiece thinking they're on their phone but nope, just crazy. Anyway, I've only been here for a short while so I can't give my true take just yet. I'll be sure to update by the time I leave here on the 11th.

Monday, August 19, 2013

Moving to Tel-Aviv

By mid Sept I will be back in the holy land living and working in North Tel-Aviv. Offered a great package, I simply couldn't say no to a recent offer made by an Israeli e-commerce software company. Rip and I see good times ahead.

Monday, July 15, 2013

Sunday, July 14, 2013

Explorer 2

Seeing the years pass in the archives of this page brings surprise and the feeling of age. Things are very much routine, quite boring, and I feel antsy. I'm likely to leave NYC for a while given the boredom it brings me. Fact is, I love exploring. Seeing new places and documenting them is my favorite thing to do. Reading posts from back when I was backpacking contributes greatly to my ideas of shattering this boring norm. Who knows, that or save up and buy a house. Always on the hunt for that next internet start-up idea. It worries me because it seems my creativity and knack for new ideas are slowing. Perhaps age does this to us. Most would say "ahh, he's 32" but looking back, lots in black white, aging sucks. What can I say, it's become what it is. 

Wise words


Friday, July 05, 2013

Wednesday, May 15, 2013

The breeze


The word jaded jumps to mind when thinking about how I feel the days of late. Been here before. Into a comfortable crevice I have settled, work and play mixed well. Much as I spoke Israel down I actually really miss it. Probably grass is greener syndrome. The damn truth though is that in Israel I had a certain upper hand, as an American, that here, obviously, I don't have. Still, all is good and I trust that into place things will fall, as they normally do. I've been told bloggers are big headed. Been told it is a form of showing off. Showing off what? The terrible way I write, ya dumbshits? It's an open journal, not really even for those living, besides I.

Today was actually an interesting one. In the morning, on the way to work, I decided to grab a coffee from a Mcdonalds off the Prospect Expressway. There I settled my eyes upon a scruffy looking woman who had small bugs crawling on her. Not even a scratch and it must have itched. Grossed the fuck out I made my way out and tossed my coffee on the floor in front of me. Fuck it, it's grimy New York City (I thought). On the way home I had to call the police as a bus passed by me with the message on top saying "Emergency, call police." Just following orders... Thought it a day of note and so I write. Today I also ended a business venture that started in 2007. Was quite a rocky ride but it's time for bigger, brighter things.

@ the rents


Thursday, May 09, 2013

Wednesday, May 01, 2013

Saturday, April 13, 2013

Makes sense



And atheism allows the rich to be greedy without guilt...

Thursday, April 04, 2013

Tuesday, April 02, 2013

Troubled


Time comes time goes
No one really knows
How troubled this soul

I wait and I wait but I can't
Too many with love around
By too many beliefs I'm bound

Not sure whence it has gone
Not sure when it went away
It is so very cold
How troubled this soul


Monday, April 01, 2013

Friday, March 22, 2013

Wednesday, March 20, 2013

The wave

I truly believe that if you are not insulted by 99% of advertisements on T.V. and radio, even print advertisements, you may be a dumbshit. You see, it's an insult to my intelligence when someone trys selling me something by speaking using a certain tone, looking a certain way or using dramatic tunes. It is very much annoying. For this reason, on my 45 minute drive to work, I find myself alone with my thoughts. Sometimes it's boring but still much preferred (least by me) over listening to retarded radio hosts and their tepid ads. Again, I prefer to not be insulted by their overzealous attempts at influencing me. Now n then I'll put a good CD in and bump to that. I absolutely abhor these jerk offs trying to sell me poisonous energy drinks or fast food using deceitful tactics like slow flicker rates essentially hypnotizing you through your tube. I'd have not 1 issue placing all these marketing companies on an Island somewhere and nuking them.

Anyhoot, on a lighter note, work is ghuud, feeling appreciated is nice and rather new to me. I normally am anti working for others besides myself but for the folks for whom I currently do, I am pleased with the arrangement. Although it goes against much you'll find written on this blog, I'll probably be moving to Manhattan soon where I find I get along better with people. Sorta torn between saving money or living it up. I don't believe you only live once but do that life is short so the city, although it's always been my stomping ground, may soon be where I rest my head.

Under and in.


Way to work

Friday, March 15, 2013

Thursday, March 14, 2013

Bout Competition



Never really appreciated NY much as I do these days. Most of the posts on this blog would give you a taste of how much I hate city life. Thing is this: Opportunity to live a ridiculously more privileged life than really anywhere else in the world is not only prevalent but abundant here. And, if you have the drive and ambition, if you are a fucking hustler, you can place yourself, put simply, in high positions. These days I am all about taking no prisoners. I live in the moment and don't fuck around. Not the hippyish dude I've been the past couple years. Unfortunately, worrying about the events that make the world a terrible place has been detrimental to my well being. So, to hell with that crap. Since being a seed we have endlessly competed and, when competing, to win is the goal. Whether to get into that womb or into that honors class, a competition its always been. For this reason, a hustler is, in my opinion, very much correct in the path he's chosen. And I don't mean a street hustler but a person who strives to win at whatever they do. To be the best, like they were when trying to enter their mommys womb.

Thursday, March 07, 2013

Sunday, March 03, 2013

Amazing advice from a cousin

 "The longer I live, the more I realize the impact of attitude on life. Attitude, to me, is more important than facts. It is more important than the past, the education, the money, than circumstances, than failure, than successes, than what other people think or say or do. It is more important than appearance, giftedness or skill. It will make or break a company...a church...a home. The remarkable thing is we have a choice everyday regarding the attitude we will embrace for that day. We cannot change our past...we cannot change the fact that people will act in a certain way. We cannot change the inevitable. The only thing we can do is play on the one string we have, and that is our attitude. I am convinced that life is 10% what happens to me and 90% of how I react to it. And so it is with you...we are in charge of our Attitudes." ~ Jono